Sunday, May 10, 2020

COVIDJOURNAL:I believe now is the time to take a look at yourself and think about all the things that you want to do in a matter of a lifetime.

(student submission Spring 2020) 
I have officially recorded, stamped and documented 2020 as the worst year of all my 19 years on this Earth. Why? Well, I never thought I would be living in the middle of a pandemic that is killing people left to right and has no cure, no vaccine and no real direction to what exactly this pandemic is. 

Not only that but having to wear a mask every time I step outside the house is extremely annoying but needed. Also, the lack of concern for people who are in need or in danger this does not strike the mind of people who sashay into the stores and hoard all the food, tissue, essential items, etc. is completely disregarding and uncompassionate. This is just the tip of the iceberg of my month and two weeks during COVID-19 and quarantine.
            During the Month of March, I had so many things planned to do. This was my first college spring break and I knew I wanted to go all out and do some illegal stuff. I am just kidding but seriously, I just wanted to have fun and live my best life. I wanted to go to the legendary South Beach in Miami with a cute bikini that I had been preparing my body to wear since winter, I had plans on going to Orlando and meeting up with a couple of friends that I had not seen since the middle of February and the week after Spring Break I was going to Louisville, Kentucky for a conference that I had been anticipating and paid a lot of many to even register for.

Unfortunately, the Coronavirus thought that it was time to interrupt my plans. By the second week of social distancing and getting an email from TCC that we were going to continue class online until April 15th, I was kind of happy. I thought that I was going to have a chance to sleep in longer and eat as much food as I wanted and stay in my pajamas all day but that was not the case. I was waking up for zoom classes with teachers at nine in the morning while still wearing my hair wrap and crust in the corner of my eyes.

I lost my appetite and sleep was getting boring and becoming not so essential. My sleep schedule was losing its mind and I was only getting tired at four in the morning. This quarantine has not only added stress into my life, but depression tried to snake its way in also. I remember crying during the middle of the day and listening to sad songs because I felt so alone and extremely bored. My mom was off to work from 7 to 6 and my siblings were at their dads and I had not seen my best friend since spring break.

I felt like I was going crazy and I had reached rock bottom.
Fortunately for me, I found new hobbies.
 I did a room make over, I painted, I walked, and I shopped.
I found some type of happiness in this period of my life.
         
  Honestly, life is not all that bad.  I have food, entertainment, I am breathing clean air, I’m not in the hospital, I’m happy, my family is safe and healthy, etc. This is the time where you realize that time is of the essence in life could lead you anywhere. It’s all set a time when you realize anything can happen in a matter of seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, and years. It amazes me how no one really expected this to happen. One minute we were on campus and then the next minute we’re stuck in the house is for seven weeks having class on the computers. I believe now is the time to take a look at yourself and think about all the things that you want to do in a matter of a lifetime.