Thursday, May 28, 2020

COVID Student Journal: We are at the end of April and I am depressed

(Student submission Spring 2020)



 It all started on March 15, 2020. It started off as a good day, then I got the call. It was my boyfriend telling me that we weren’t gonna see each other for a while. I asked myself “is he breaking up with me?”. He assured me he was not and went on to explain to me how the corona virus is taking over how he said it would. We were being quarantined. 


Honestly I had never heard the word used before so I didn’t know what to expect, but little did I know the next 2 months would change my life forever…

 

 The rest of the month of March wasn’t as bad as I thought it’d be. I actually enjoyed the time off from work and other things that were stressful to deal with, I even got to learn new skills. I’ve learned how to cook even better than before, I’ve learned how to meditate & ive been very consistent with working out! I was actually enjoying the time of isolation. I thought it was healthy and honestly I would do it again, for a short amount of time. 


With all that being said, the month of April came and everything changed. When the government stated that everyone would have to stay inside their homes for another month, I lost it! Everything was going well when I thought that being in quarantine was gonna last for 3 weeks but how did they expect us to stay at home, isolated with our families for another 30 days? I was getting tired of being home towards the end of March, I just stuck it out with hopes of being able to go places in April but that wasn’t gonna happen.

 

 So yeah I definitely lost it. It was about the 7th or 8th day in April when I started to lose my mind. Everyone in the house was getting on my nerves! I could barely take it. I started shutting myself inside my room and I only came out for food. 


At this point all I could think was when the world opened back up these people are never going to see me again. Obviously I was bluffing but that’s how I felt. 


Towards the end of the month is when everything really started falling apart honestly. From my mental health to relationships, it started falling apart. We are at the end of April and I am depressed. Too much time with your family isn’t healthy, in my opinion. Too much time away from your favorite people isn’t that great either. Your family sees every side of you, the worst parts of you. After they’ve pressed every button you have it goes south. I will forever love my siblings but they are AGGRAVATING! 


Being apart from my bestfriend and my boyfriend hurts. I’m used to not being around my bestfriend because she lives out of town but we had plans! My boyfriend on the other hand, I miss him. He’s swamped with work and I’ve only seen him about 5 or 6 times during this quarantine. 


Things are so different now and I just want life to go back to how it was before March, but honestly life will probably never be the same….